Today I came out . Not in the traditional sense of the word but in a ‘ I no longer believe in what you do sense ‘
I just don’t believe in Hell , I told my closest friends. I can’t get over it and it changes everything. How did I not realise this before? I have been a ‘ Christian ‘ for 10 years. But you know , sometimes , the simplest things take a long time to register in your mind. Someone finally gives up smoking , or loses weight or changes career – often surprising all those around them – something just clicks into place.
How do you cope when your life as you knew it shifts into a new direction with different roads to travel and traffic jams of doubt and anxiety jarring the way.
The road less travelled is a tricky one. Developing your own sense of self belief , depending upon your own thoughts and conclusions, not those of men. It takes a certain kind of courage that I am not sure I have.