Sunday. This morning I went to church. Although I no longer believe in the fundamental belief system of christianity , part of me still finds comfort in sitting for an hour , the conformity , the worship singing , the solace in expected silence from the crowd. What I once found intensely captivating and astounding , I now find mildly irritating. But I cannot stop going. To stop would be a big deal. My life has centred around my church for a good decade. I look at the friendships that I have made and literally only a couple would survive if I left. Now, that is a reason to go as well as to stay, but there is a safety in belonging to a community that I am not prepared to relinquish just now.
Today , the skies were heavy and two rainbows splashed the sky with colour. God promised Noah he would never flood the world again , and to seal this promise he gave us rainbows to remind us. A lovely childish tale . Now I see the rainbow and I see a profound promise of hope and light . It represents new being , new awakenings , it is for me what I need to to be. A whisper to get out of the house, to seek some earthly peace in the woods with my dog. So , that’s what I will do ….
God bless 🙂