I now feel far removed from the mania around Corona Virus, initially I was obsessed , anxious, constantly watching the news, but now , due to my already disclosed extremely short attention span , I am already over it. I guess if it hit me hard by taking a member of my family then it would become something again, but I have lost all interest in the whole debacle. I think perhaps due to the fact that I believe that I have already had it, I feel untouchable. I hear about all the issues with PPE and the fact that I will be going to work on a ward where I will be expected to use it and I just feel irritated , it suddenly feels like a great big deal made out of nothing. Now I know it’s not, but what felt ominous , important , vital , encompassing a week ago , has completely dropped off my radar.
SO , what do I do with this new found detachment , when everyone around me is acting like cats on hot tin rooves ? Paradoxically , my dog has a virus , and I am more worried about him than the world. I don’t have capacity for world pain ; world crisis , I can only be with what is in front of me. And I ain’t gonna apologise for it.
Tonight we had a serious first world issue with our Uber Eats takeaway , burgers were missing , the chips were cold and there was a household meltdown.