Letting go of the past is quite difficult I am finding. What I have learnt in the last week is that I seek to be important to people. I search for my identity in others’ lives.
I am learning to let go of my need to be noticed , my need to be useful , to be somebody . Because all it is is my need. Yesterday a colleague said that everybody on the planet seeks out things to do , something to achieve , busyness ; in order to stop themselves having to feel . There is a huge disparity in how much and what people do to distract themselves , in some lives it is unnoticeable and in others it causes utter dysfunction.
So what happens, when we stop the wheel from turning and just sit , sit and feel?
I am learning to do this and it’s quite enlightening , how much you learn about yourself when you listen ! Listen to the whispers of your soul , tune into what your feelings are saying. Underneath all that noise , all that stuff , is you , yearning to have a voice in your life?
How long can a soul trudge the earth being busy before it will crumble up and die?